weird thought on sexual drive

[mother engine]

as a heterosexual male the 'illusion' of the female form being anything other than a base animal shell seems more apparent after emission. humans, like bonobo apes, do not have regulated periods of sexual activity. this may be a gift to the common stud, though for myself it remains a burden (there are other things i would much rather be doing with my time, call me crazy). to me sex is mostly about the release of tension. the moments after sex i experience a meditative clarity wherein i can see beyond what the chemistry of arousal would have me believe. now the female mind on the other hand...